Sanjay Roshan Talwar

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Phuhaar was launched at a time, when Mother had asked me to start a Travel Agency business. She was my first client. I started preparing her itineraries to travel overseas for her Self Realization Public programs. 1991 was also the year, she decided to take me along with Nirmal Sangeet Sarita to Russia. That year we all got together in Rome, from where the italians made a special sleeper bus for the musicians and 10 other yogis to travel with us. We were to drive down from Rome to Milan to Vienna to Prague, to Budapest and finally to Moscow. It was 2 nights in bus and at every stop we would reach for our performance at a public program pre-arranged so beautifully. Mother would fly there before us, and be there tt greet us on stage. It was one of the most amazing journeys I ever took in my life. In the company of all the musicians and Sahaj yogis from at least 7 counties accompanied us. All the way through we sang and laughed & meditated. Even slept in the night while our own Sahaj Brothers drove the bus over night, taking turns. It was probably the best adventure time I ever had. Back home I became very busy setting up my new travel business. Really, that year I could not find time to write any new poems. Mother had sent me a word saying I must bring my new Album to Russia. It became such a rushed affair for me. But I realized that from my previous albums several of my songs had become very popular. So all I did then was to pick up the most favourite bhajans from my previous albums Roohani Roshni & Sahaj Sadhana and remastered the best of the two. For the first time I felt, I had become lax in my writing and was juggling with my old albums. With a big guilt I went to Shree Mataji to let her know I had not had the time this time to prepare a new album, and so had come up with a hybrid of Roohani Roshni & Sahaj Sadhana. Shree Mataji laughed and said, now this is the time you have to do your worldly things but also keep an eye on your accent and the benevolence of others. It was a big eye opener for me. She had forgiven me and blessed Phuhaar, but she asked me to add at least one new song. I immediately went to the studio and recorded the Ganesha Sthuti - "Hemja Sutam bhaje..." ( one I had composed in Ganapatiphule in 1987) I remember vividly, Mother called me on phone from Pune after she heard the Ganesha Sthuti. She asked me " from where did you get the courage to record an Adi Shankaracharya song? "Do you think you even match up with his stature and depth?" Yes, she was scolding me. I froze. Tears flowed form my eyes till I sobbed before her. Then in a very calm and soothing voice she said " I know, you did this to please me, and so as a Goddess I feel you did this in your innocence. Hence I grant you the permission to go ahead and release this album with the Ganesha Sthuti in it. I am giving the song vibrations. You will now also be able to sing it in all my Pujas, when they do Ganesha puja song in the beginning of every Puja. My heart skipped several beats. It was sometimes difficult to understand Mother, because she was pure love & compassion for her children. Yet it was a great lesson I learnt in the process. Later when I had a chance to meet her, she told me that since my music had become very popular, I had started to develop an ego, though very subtle, hiding in my Superego at the bck Agnya. She asked me to be very careful in the future. She cleared my back Agnya and then told me, it alright now. Go enjoy your freedom, but keep a close watch on yourself. Ever since that time, whenever she would invite me to sing the Ganesha Sthuti, I made it a point to pay my respects to the great Shri Adi Shankaracharya ,who wrote it. Then one day, when I was with other, she told me that I have made you, my children, even higher than the gods and goddesses. Even the deities are waiting to serve you. So assume your powers and fearlessly go into the world and spread my message through your music. Be humble about it and remember that it is all the power of my love for you. Phuhaar actually broke all records in sales.