Sanjay Roshan Talwar

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I lived in New Delhi with my Parents. My Father, Dr Talwar was asked to Lead Sahaja Yoga for North India. He was a good speaker. Whenever Shree Mataji came to Delhi, she would come to our house. She even stayed with us for a few days. There was so much of personal time with Shree Mataji, that for me no other world existed. I had been virtually out of job for several years since the age of 29. If Mother needed me, I would be there for her. Whether she traveled within India or Overseas, I usually accompanied her. In Delhi, I was leading the Music Group of the Yuvas. Every Saturday I would sing at the Delhi Temple at Qutab Institutional area. Rather, I personally assisted in the making of its building. Shree Mataji had earlier put me on the job for procuring the stones & marbles. These were laid by me both at the Delhi Temple at The Pratishthan at Pune. In 1992, I had a desire to take along upcoming and young promising Sahaj Musicians to join me in an exclusive album to be dedicted to Shree Mataji. That is how the Album Jagriti was born. Musicans like Ranjan Sharma, Natraj, Raja Chatterji,the famous Bakare Sisters of Pune - Sarita & Anurita & my elder brother Deepak, all were collected together and we all sang in this album. It was an offering to our guru from the Delhi Collective. Shree Mataji had specifically asked me to record the voices of Sarita & Anurita Bakare, whose music she liked very much. They came specially from Pune to record for the album. It was the first time that I had involved other Sahaja artists in my album. Mother was very pleased with the idea. In fact, for this particular album, as usual, I went to Shree Mataji to have the lyrics checked and corrected by Her. But when met her, she told me that I did not need to worry about coming to her every time I wrote a poem. "Now you have learnt to stand on your own feet. Remember I have already authorized you. You will never fail. This is a perfect album and requires no correction". I was thrilled to hear that. From this moment I knew that this journey of writing composing, singing & recording would no longer require a check from Shree Mataji. My dependence on Her had ended. She told me, I was now my own Guru and through my own vibrations I could work it out. Going deeper into intense meditation was the only way I could achieve it. My own worldly mother - Mrs Toshi Talwar, always used to assist me with my poetry. For this album, she played a very big role. Shree Mataji was very fond of Her. Some of the poems my Mother wrote, were so much deep in meaning that I had to take these to Shree Mataji for help, to understand the Poetry. Then one day in Calcutta, when I was singing one of the songs - Tanik Rukh Badlo Sakhi... (Poetry of my mother), Shree Mataji commented that my mother was the re-incarnation of Amir Khusro. The title Jagriti was so apt for this album, as it was the turning point of my inner awakening. I tried to look back into all of the poetry that had flowed through me, and quite amazingly it was a step-wise learning process of Sahaja Knowledge that I had imbibed from Shree Mataji Herself, her Talks & Pujas. It was all subtly coming out in the form of Pure Knowledge - this poetry. I then realized how my own poems will act as the Guru Mantra for me always. Really this album is dedicated to the Guru of all Gurus - Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi. On the birthday celebrations of Shree Mataji held at the famous Siri fort Auditorium of Delhi in march 1993, I performed most of the songs from this album. When I went to bow before Mother after my performasnce, she blessed me, saying "well done Roshan. Stay enlightened.